RENEWED HOPE

I stared at the mirror, 

My reflection screamed “ugly”

My countenance was “weak” 

All I could see was “broken” 

I had lost a battle against my flesh 

I thought my strength was sufficient 

I thought I was having fun 

But I boom and boom then boomed 

My years away

Where do I begin from? 

Life they say happens but 

Is it really life, I lived? 

Or did I get so obsessed with the world 

Standard that I forgot what really mattered? 

Hmmm

I wanted fun 

I got fun and 

Now, I’m being made fun of 

The irony of life 

I chased after all that man valued 

I didn’t want to seem like the “boring lady”

I kept telling myself, “life is short, let’s live large”

I listened to crowd that said “who Dey marry church girl?”

I forgot to ask ,”who will marry a prostitute?”.

Hmmm 

I stared at my reflection on the mirror again 

I finally saw that, I was just a weak vessel 

Who thought too highly of herself 

Pride instead comes before a fall 

I fell on my knees and spoke to the God, who I despised for long 

Now, I understood why believers lived a consecrated lifestyle.

They aren’t boring, they’re principled

I closed my eyes and lifted up my hands,

Then I heard His voice say “Forgiven” 

At last, I have been renewed.

I confessed my faults and weakness, came to Him who strengthens the weak, 

He took me in and watched me clean.

I’M RENEWED.